Friday, March 13, 2009

When is the right time?

I've been a busy lady the past 12 years or so.

DH and I successfully raised a child from 13 to adulthood. It was so successful that she is our full fledged daughter, by the way, completely bonded to each other as parents and child. That was pretty special.

We went from a teen to adopting a newborn. At the time I really did think that was so much work, but you know what they say, "Hindsight is 20/20". She was a piece of cake. She's a bit more work now, but only because she can move now.

Then the twins came, after a false start of a couple of other adoptions. Talk about stress! They were foster/adopt which meant letting our hearts be open had some drawbacks, just in case it didn't work out. But it did and we got to be their forever family. One of the twins has some special needs though that I pegged as early as under a year old. Hmm, well we were certainly busy then too.

Then God called us to actually use the embryos we had made years earlier and we were happy that one of them finally worked and we had our son.

Whew, in between all of these additions, DH worked an insane amount of hours, we visited family that live 2 states away, homeschooled all of them, bought a house in the country, moved to the city, moved to an island and back again to the Northwest. And now I'm looking to the horizon.

Just beyond this current stress of actually selling the house in HI and actually buying and moving into the house in the NW what will I do?

I find myself drawn to ministry (go figure with a preacher for a dad). I am so trying to figure out a role for myself that won't step on my faith's toes about women being in subjection. I have passion people. I want people, that only have a vague idea of what Christianity is about, to meet me and to say, "Oh wow, her and the Supreme Being are close!" Right now my current circle of people consists of people that go to the same worship house on a weekly basis. And until now I've been satisfied ministering to the people that come to that building. I've taught bible classes, led singing for women, taught children, counseled, listened, loved. But when is the right time for me to move to the next phase? How do I really increase my circle? I'm struggling with this. Do you have any ideas? I'm not as busy as I have been in the past, but I do realize I'm still extremely busy...

Well if this is the time to do the next thing, what will it be and how do I accomplish it? anyone? anyone?

Prayers requested and coveted.


  1. I know exactly what you are going through! I feel called into a ministry, too. I am excited and so happy and READY yet afraid (maybe) at the sametime. I asked God... how? what? where? and he answered! so now I have to be obedient! So my question to you..have you asked how? where? who? Has HE Answered? What did He say? As you hear His voice and discern what He wants you to obedience. A momemnt's hestitation is considered disobedience. Abraham didn't think twice about following God...then why do we? Also, have you fasted? Did you go to an older women you consider a spiritual mentor and share and ask them to pray? Pray with you,over you? Have you asked God what you need to surrender to do this ministry? There is a season and a time for everything. Is this time for you just to focus on your kids and homeschool? Or do you need to surrender that and start this minitsry? Just thoughts? I am brainstorming... WOW- what an awesome call? TO GOD BE THE GLORY! I will be praying. Will you share with me exactly what I can be praying for?

  2. I'm sure you know this already or may have been told this before but you, my friend, are a natural encourager. You always seem to know what people need without them even saying a word. That's a God gift. You are a blessing to a lot of people, including me! You are such a hard worker for the Lord and I will be praying for you. Love ya! <><