Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Heart heavy but still at peace

I've been a little bit heart heavyed these past few weeks. Hubby and I had been looking at adopting again. It has been a maze. First we thought it would be the right thing for God if we adopted a child with special needs. We could easily have taken a deaf child, or one with some correctable disabilities (club foot, cleft palate, etc). But did you know that most countries think that we are a big family and must of course not want more kids or be able to care for them financially? If we wanted to adopt a child that was over 5 years old then there are a couple of countries that would accept our application. And then of course there are a few countries in Africa that would be willing to look at our application if we wanted to accept a child that might have HIV or AIDS.

So as you can see my heart began to grow heavy with these thoughts.

We turned our attention towards the possibility of adopting an infant again. Our agency, ever so sweetly told us that we would more than likely not be picked by a birth- mother since she is usually seeking a home with no children or maybe one other child in the home so that her child can have the best chances in life.

Wow...so there are 148 million orphans in this world....

We are a family that would take one or maybe even two of them....

We are blocked though at this point unless we change what we are looking for.....


but


We do have a great family...

We have 5 wonderful kids....

We will wait...

We will wait with peace knowing that if and when God decides that we should adopt again HE will make it very clear what path we should take and how we should get there....


3 comments:

  1. wow, that is a heavy heart. My prayers are with you and Allen as you decide what to do! May the Lord speak so clearly to you...Isaiah 30:21 Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it." and Jeremiah 33:3 'Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.'

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  2. Keep trying!! We have four kids and are just now starting the process of adopting from Ethiopia. We've spoken with 5 or 6 agencies (hard to keep track!), and all have been very encouraging - saying we should have no trouble adopting two siblings under 5. Or maybe there is something that they aren't telling us??

    But I understand your frustration. People have been asking us 'Why Ethiopia.' Our answer has been that we are completely open to any country, including our own, but Ethiopia seems to be the only country open to us :)

    God knows your heart and already has a fabulous plan made out for you!!

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